the sexes

OK so we all know about boys and girls. the birds and the bees. and suger and spice and everything nice..

Now with that said i went to the club again tonight. im not a quiter far from it. tonight at the club i notice some things i have had suspissions about for a while now new years eye.. Have you ever noticed that a male dances in some ways feminaine. and the female dances strong and mascaline ( ok so i think to much ) but its true and its plain as day if u watch it. I believe the females and males dance the way they do to attract the opasit sex, you know like pharamones. I find it strange and also unique,

Usually when i go to the club i will finish a 40oz before leaving home. this is to help loosen me up get out on the dance floor and just be me, and not give a shit what others think. usually after i drink the 40 i wont drink anymore booze the rest of the night (if u havent tried, crawling or pushing a wheelchair is damn near impossable druck. so i avoid it.) my friend who we will call al does the same thing to loosen up before he hits the dance floor. well like most men al is obsessed with women. and goes to try and get laid.

well tonight al drank more then he should have. and met up with these girl. who wanted to go back to his pad, thats cool and all. but wait theres more. when the club close down he finds me and rushes me to his car, claiming hes got to get beer for two girls headed to his place. problem was he had 10 mins till the liqure places close at 2 an. so hes driving like a bad out of hell. and i tell him. u know ur not gona make it so dont drive like an idiot. he says i have to i got to get laid. and proceeds to tell me when i get laid ill be the same way. and then as if i had forseen it we get pulled over by cops.

Now i love al like a brother, in many cases hes more like a brother to me then my own real brother. but this was assnine. i agree with the ladies men are stupid thinking with the wrong head when ladies come calling and this is what men get for there stupidity. what tdo they think that head on there sholders is for a flipping hat rack. i love women i seriously do, but im not going to speed and end up in the back of a cop car getting arested for a d.u.i. for ANY WOMAN. i dont wantt a mark on my record in the off chance I might get laid. i mean im sure there are girls out there that if they want to go back to ur pad they wont ask u to brake any laws. Now my friend dosent get the girls, or the booze. he gets a mark on his driving record and gets to realise hes lucky these cops allowed him to go home and not to the poliece station to spend the night in the drunk tank. and i get to tell him I told you so. my mama toght me what this thing on my sholder is for

i told u so bro. ill tell u in the morning. or maybe ill have u read this for urself,

the opasit sex xhould not consume u and have it be come the be all end all, of all things. its just sex dont do anything stupid for the chance u might get it. cause chances are u might not get it and spend 2 hrs in the back of a squad car.

happier days

The day of love is coming :( Last year i had a gf. but i just couldent take an 18 year old giving me orders. telling me what i cou;d and could not say. or telling me to trust her while she goes to parties and kisses other girls. correct me if im wrong but if ur dating a guy. isent kissing girls a form f cheat (which is something she said she would NEVER do) yea right and im a line backer for the new england patriots LOL. braking up with her was easy. i want a girl friend not someone who thinks there my commanding officer. and i felt like every little thing was going to get my ass court marshaled

In all fairness though. even last valintines day. i was also thinking of the girl i first fell inlove with. who i love with all my heart till this vary day. i felt meeting and being with her was so right, before her i never did anything that felt as right as this did. she melted my heart and for the first time in my life i looked at the dissablirty and the harrasment i went through as if it was a good thing. to me it suddenly became a good thing. it helped make me the man she loved. For the first time in all my life i felt that being me was something wonderful.

indeed it was wonderful. i never smiled or laughed or was so genuinely happy in all my life. my nightmares gone. people make fun of me, it dident phase me cause id come home get online and there she was.i felt invincable.

But as easy as it comes it goes. people got involved said i cheated and this and that and the otherthing. why the hell would i cheat and ruin the happest times of my life for what a piece of ass. i wouldent jeperdize my relationship with her for all the gold in fort knox. it wasent enough though . tried and tried i never got her back, an i lost her>

now almost 3 years later we still talk and we talk about the good ole days. i cant help but still feel love for her. shes the only one i feel who understands me. and even for a net relationship we have a huge bond. . not of the girls i mentioned can hold a candel to her. thoes girls dont know what its like to be a real woman if rthey tried. granted one day they will be...maybe...

I know nothing i say or do will ever bring her back to me. but at the same time i cant change how i feel eather. shes my best friend. the one i can tell damn near anything to. and if i could turn back the hands of time to the day we started going out i would. just to enjoy it all over again :) but i am only a mortal man, and that is beyound my ability.

if the fates some how help her find this . then just know i love u your a beautiful princess and and even though we probally wont be together. the fact i love u wont change

this past weekend

I had been to the club dancing many times. but none was like this past weekend. I understand that a guy in a wheelchair on the dance floor is not something you see all the time. and i will acept the fact that some girls cant get over the fact i get around on wheels not legs.

But it makes me feel awful when i know that if i could walk id have a beautiful girl dancing with me to. this girl was in front of me three inches off my lap and when i go to put my hands on her hips she looks and when she looks down and sees me she runs away. and ive seen other guys do that to her all night long

Why run away. im just as much a man as any other guy on that dance foor. i may not be the most handsome out there but i refuse to believe im the ugliest one out there eather, cause im not. the pitty dances were cool for a while. but just once i want a girl to stay with me. not cause she feels it would be the nice thig to do. but because shes interested in me. the person inside the chair. thats all i want some girl to see me for me and not the mode of transpertation.

i try not to give up. but there r nights ive cried my self to sleep. cause i have a good heart im kind loving and romantic. im just waiting for a girl to give me a chance. but days like last weekend. make me fear it may never happen

But for now ill keep the faith and dust myself off and try again as i have done so many times before. in the hopes my happy days r coming