worrie wort

I am getting to be a worry wart in my old age how u may ask

1 ive noticed in the last few months of my 23rd year and now caring into my 24th year im starting to forget things. this is kinda scary i never forgot anything andd now lately i am. so im worried that now i may have some neorlogical problem or something. things im mainly forgetting are people and things i havent thought about in 5 years. ago. *shugs*

2 the left side of my left pectoral muscle is hurting a little every thow an agan. but because its on the same side of my heart im worried perhaps i have heart problems. but it it was my heart wouldent my whole chest hurt. wouldent riding 5 miles a day an gettiung it puipping like riding gets it to do make my chesyt hurt? but my chest dosent hurt when i ride and get my heart pumping.. plus im also liftuing 35 lbs doing curls and butterflys and doing the one where u put your arm an waight behind ur head and go up and down. god i hope its just the excersizing. the left side is the tight side and weak side due to my cerebral polsey . Besides mom tryed picking up the dumbell today and her first reacrtion was " holly shit you can lift that" to which i nodded and said 30 times for each of the three excersizes.

now my friend hector (who just came down from the bay area) said that more then likly my body is still getting used to non smoking i said after 20 days it that possable, and he says yes nicatine is more adicting the cocain and the withdraws and recooping time is just as hard as coke. (does anyone know if this is true or not or just full of shit)

i started smoking in febuary 01, so almost five years, minus 2 months for the last time i quit. does that mean im to late to pervent heart disease an cancer. my lungs are clear the day i stoped smoking was the day i stoped coughing more then once or twice a day. but does that mean my heart is distroyed. i have been tired more then usuall, but hector also says its cause muy bdy has become dependent on the nicatine and thus gets tired with out it, that it will take a couple months to get all my energy back

im going to get my phisical soon. im gona ghave him listen to my heart. im scared shitliss. if someone has any knowladge that may help me plz help a man out. when does the damage caused by smoking become eraverseable.. given ive smiked for less then 5 years and been excersing for 1 and my age dosent that say that more then likly im being a hypocondreact???

12 days

twelve days, thats how long its been now since ive had a smoke, and oh yes im doing fine.. i started my new years resalution a little late you might say. but better late then never. i got sick and freaking tired of worrying that every little pain i felt in my chest was perhaps cancer forming or a prelude to a heart attack.. Ive been ein enough hospital beds feeling week amd decrepid. I refuse to feel that way again and i refuse to die in one. when i die it will bee as ive lived. fighting to the last breath. npt waiting there for death to take me. i aint going out like that

after almost 2 months my hamstring is finally healed im on the bike and waights full time again. ive taken a few steps down on the bike only going 2.5 miles instead of five. Ill get there again and this time i wont be stupid and try and ride like a bat out of hell. like im fricken lance armstrong .

i have noticed that my longs are alont stronger in the 12 days. i dont get winded as bad and my chest dont hurt when i run out of air and neaher does my throte......

i just hope ive quit soon enough to pervent any permanet damage to my lungs and heart. my parents and family say its a good possability seeing how my longs and everything else seems to already go back to a takme before i smoked. but damn im a worry wart ...

more blogs up comming hopefull i havent lost all my readers

matt