worrie wort

I am getting to be a worry wart in my old age how u may ask

1 ive noticed in the last few months of my 23rd year and now caring into my 24th year im starting to forget things. this is kinda scary i never forgot anything andd now lately i am. so im worried that now i may have some neorlogical problem or something. things im mainly forgetting are people and things i havent thought about in 5 years. ago. *shugs*

2 the left side of my left pectoral muscle is hurting a little every thow an agan. but because its on the same side of my heart im worried perhaps i have heart problems. but it it was my heart wouldent my whole chest hurt. wouldent riding 5 miles a day an gettiung it puipping like riding gets it to do make my chesyt hurt? but my chest dosent hurt when i ride and get my heart pumping.. plus im also liftuing 35 lbs doing curls and butterflys and doing the one where u put your arm an waight behind ur head and go up and down. god i hope its just the excersizing. the left side is the tight side and weak side due to my cerebral polsey . Besides mom tryed picking up the dumbell today and her first reacrtion was " holly shit you can lift that" to which i nodded and said 30 times for each of the three excersizes.

now my friend hector (who just came down from the bay area) said that more then likly my body is still getting used to non smoking i said after 20 days it that possable, and he says yes nicatine is more adicting the cocain and the withdraws and recooping time is just as hard as coke. (does anyone know if this is true or not or just full of shit)

i started smoking in febuary 01, so almost five years, minus 2 months for the last time i quit. does that mean im to late to pervent heart disease an cancer. my lungs are clear the day i stoped smoking was the day i stoped coughing more then once or twice a day. but does that mean my heart is distroyed. i have been tired more then usuall, but hector also says its cause muy bdy has become dependent on the nicatine and thus gets tired with out it, that it will take a couple months to get all my energy back

im going to get my phisical soon. im gona ghave him listen to my heart. im scared shitliss. if someone has any knowladge that may help me plz help a man out. when does the damage caused by smoking become eraverseable.. given ive smiked for less then 5 years and been excersing for 1 and my age dosent that say that more then likly im being a hypocondreact???

12 days

twelve days, thats how long its been now since ive had a smoke, and oh yes im doing fine.. i started my new years resalution a little late you might say. but better late then never. i got sick and freaking tired of worrying that every little pain i felt in my chest was perhaps cancer forming or a prelude to a heart attack.. Ive been ein enough hospital beds feeling week amd decrepid. I refuse to feel that way again and i refuse to die in one. when i die it will bee as ive lived. fighting to the last breath. npt waiting there for death to take me. i aint going out like that

after almost 2 months my hamstring is finally healed im on the bike and waights full time again. ive taken a few steps down on the bike only going 2.5 miles instead of five. Ill get there again and this time i wont be stupid and try and ride like a bat out of hell. like im fricken lance armstrong .

i have noticed that my longs are alont stronger in the 12 days. i dont get winded as bad and my chest dont hurt when i run out of air and neaher does my throte......

i just hope ive quit soon enough to pervent any permanet damage to my lungs and heart. my parents and family say its a good possability seeing how my longs and everything else seems to already go back to a takme before i smoked. but damn im a worry wart ...

more blogs up comming hopefull i havent lost all my readers

matt

boycot johnny knoxvill's mew film the ringer

friends and strangers alike i have a request.

Boycott johnny knoxvills new film the ringer its about a man who pretends to be mentally challenged so that he can compete in the special Olympics.

Knoxvill former star of jackass has now stooped to a new low. this is disrespectful and sickening to me a disabled people all over the world have been put through enough mainly cause we are misunderstood. and for him and the makers to do a film like this is wrong

I give HUGE props to those who compete in both the special Olympics and the other one. these people who compete in these 2 events are choragus strong people

it is my feeling that this film spits on the athletes in the special Olympics. these athletes deserve to be revered and not disrespected as this film would do.

its not fair, and its so not right. its hard for us to live the life we live and its only for the strong and those who refuse to give up. its not funny its very serious and this is soooo wrong, it paints us in a bad life. in a culture whos prejudices have already cause those of us who are different then the norm so much pain anguish and hardship


in the clips Ive seen of this movie. it makes us look like were complete and utter morons. just cause some of us my talk or move differently then non disabled people. please know that disabled people are not stupid. were just misunderstood, and were just trying to live our lives the very best way we can

I implore my friend who know me, know what Ive gone through with being a disabled man, and those who can see and understand the point im trying to make. please repost this message. and i hope those who read this and dont know me. will see why im doing this and help me and my people out.

Lets shout out in one voice that this stuff isnt funny its mean spirited. together lets try and make a difference so that future generations may not have to experience the prejudices that exist in our world today

let us all help take a stand and say we want a world without hate, and without racism. Weather it be disabled , racial religious or sexual. lets do our part to end it now. it the hope that our actions can help cleanse the would out the evils that exist in it.

if anyone has a problem with this post i can be reached at wheelsmgr@hotmail.com. or u can visit my myspace page at http://www.myspace.com/wheelsmgr and send me myspace mail

thank you for your time and understanding

Matt

im back

thats right folks wheels is back, thanks to trinity for reminding me about this, cause u see i had some comp trouble and lost the link to blogger.

TRIP TO SAN DIEGO

what fun that was but the 8 hr trip there and back was daunting tho it was great fun, pretty much spent the whole weekend drunk with my friends :) when i got home i became sicker then a dog and was side lined for 2 weeks, probally do to tempature chances, when i was in san diego it was 110 here at home, and 75 there lol

ODDS AND ENDS

my excersoze busted, thank god i had the service warenty. 50 bucks a year saved me about 200 bucks in repairs its fixed now and im now riding 4 smiles in 25 mins every day. still doing the waights as well. im really enjoying hearing damn ur really buff that makes me feel good

I am finally out of dept :), except i just bought an 1800 sleep number bed. once the place fides ur sleep number for u its like sleeping on a cloud. its the softest bed iver ever layed on and with all my aches and pains its worth it to have a soft comfy mattris

I finally got my new handicap friendly bathroom, instead of a tub that was as hard to climb ovber like the berlin wall. now i just have a two inch ledge to climb over and grab rails to hold on to. im really loving it, its so safe and easy to use

Hector's cousin:

A few months ago i started to get to know hectors cousin megan who was a drug addict and pill popper, yea i know red flag matt, but she was sweet to me. well turns out she liked me alot, and i liked her to but with her storting pain pills i was worried about her health. One night she told me that talking to me makes her not want to do any more drugs and i was like yay, we even talked about hooking up. well i blew that. one night i was waiting for her phgone call cause hearing her voice cheered me up. well she called, and for 30 mins everything was cool till i heared her snorting pills with me on the nine, i asked her about it and she confessed. I took this as a slap in the face how can u tell me talking to me makes u want to give up drugs, and then 48 hours later do it with me on the phone.

already depressed, i asked her how she would feel about if i got cancer from smoking, she said shed be real sad, and i said so now u know how i feel. to that she said but it helps me deal with shit that i dont wana even deal with, and i told her vary calmly thats what friends are for and i was here for her, and that if i can go thjough my life without being high all the time, then she could do it to...

we havent talked since late june, hector told me she feels i was judging her and reading her the riot act i calkled her many times to giver her a heart felt apologey but she dident wana hear it.

in hine sight im fine with it now, i have my own troubles, i cant take on someone else, especially if that someone is self distructive, hwctor no longer lives in town, tho i ask about her when he calls to which he replys " if u kept ur mough shut u would have gotten laid and hooked up with her" but that in my mind whpuld have made me a shitty friend.

i thought i did the right thing ...

i always said i was a a fan of star trek, acording to two things on the starfleet chartewr. you always anwser a disstress call even from an enemy, its the humanitarian thing to do, its the right thing to do. another rule is aslong as it dosent interfer with the prime directive on non interferience with pre warp civalizations, and thoes who think there alone in the world, you help thoes who are un able to help them selves

T minus 16 hrs and counting

I am so nervious, in 16 hours im headed to san diego. i have never been this far away from home without a parent before. Further more i have never had to put my well being and trust in the hands of my brother.

Im excited yet nervious at the same time. other then shower and shave im all packed and ready to go. i just hope that there no mname calling or arging back and forth. i also hope he dosent do something stupid to get me hurt, or he leaves me behind somewhere

i know the friends who house were staying at will watch out for me. . i just hope everything turns out ok and not a dissaster. my nerves are already going to be shot.

ill blog when i get home on sunday july 17th

fantastic 4 not so fantastic

I have been eagerly anticipating this movie now for over a year, so it’s of no surprise that I went to see the vary first showing at midnight. I even paid for my brother and his girlfriend to go because I’m such a nice guy.

Synopsis:

Reed Richards in an attempt to leave his mark on the world, and get out of debt, enlists the help of three long time acquaintances, and one high school rival turned multimillion dollar tycoon on his new project. The study, and intelligence gathering of a spacial storm. This storm he believes could help the human race enrich their daily lives. However he is off on his calculations,, and the storm alters the D.N.A of the five companions.

Now Reeds, (Ioan Gruffudd) Sue Storm, (Jessica Alba) her brother Johnny Storm, (Chris Evens) and Ben Grimm (Michael Chiklis) must adjust to life with these new abilities, as well as life in the public eye. As the Fantastic 4, they soak to put an end to multimillion dollar tycoon Victor Von Doom. (Julian McMahon) Whose experience with the spacial storm has put him on the ultimate power trip literally.


I must say I’m a little disappointed with this movie. The reason being is that I don’t think the script was so great, I mean this is the summer blockbuster season, and this movie just doesn’t fit the bill. Yes in the beginning it has a lot of action, but it tapers off quite a bit till the end. The rest off the movie just feels like a bunch of people with anger management issues. It almost plays out like one of Dr. Phil’s family in crisis shows. It needs a lot more action, and a lot more of the emoational depth we have come to expect from feather film adaptations of Marvel comic books.

What drama there is comes from Michael Chiklis portrayal of Ben Grimm. Chiklis does a great job bringing Ben Grimm’s complexities to life. You can feel and believe the hardships his corrector encounters while trying to adjust to his new life. I felt deeply saddened by what he had to now experience at the hands of some non understanding people. Weather that’s because of his great acting, or the fact that I could totally relate with what his corrector had to go through is for someone other then I to decide. But I can tell you that if you thought Chiklis could only play the tough guy he does on F/X’s The Shield, you’re wrong. His portrayal of the gentle yet tough Grimm is outstanding.

Don’t get me wrong I think the directors cast all the right people for the write roles. Ioan Gruffudd played a very good leader and scientist, Alba was the glue that holds the family together, and between the two correctors you can tell they have an almost jaded past. Evans pulls off the flamboyant pretty boy, who thinks he’s god’s gift to everything that you’d expect from Johnny Storm quite well. And McMahon is perfect as the arrogant egotistical Doom. He’s got the look and the voice a villain should have. Let’s face it, this isn’t the first time Julian McMahon has played a bad guy, and boy does he excel at it.

It’s my opinion that the special effects were probably the focal point in this movie. They were done vary well, there amazing in fact. Of course they would have to be when you take unrealistic powers that would only work in comics and turn them around so they look like they work in live action film. They do indeed work except when the human torch starts to fly. Yes I know he does fly in the cartoons and comics, and that works in that medium. In live action however it makes you wish they would explain how he could fly (which they don’t) otherwise it feels and looks and feels far fetched and cheesy (which it did).
In short I did like the movie, although I was expecting more from an eagerly anticipated summer film. I liked the acting. I just wasn’t to crazy about the script. It’s missing the drama, emotion and action that films like Spiderman, X-Men, and the new Batman Begins has. My advice is this. If you have nothing to do, and want to get out of the house then go see this movie. But don’t blow off some major fun filled plans because you want to go see this movie.. Kind of a toss up I know, but then again so was this film

forth of july

One word sums up my forth of july CRAZY

My family decided to have a BBQ with my aunt uncle and cousins. and that went fine, we swam and played alot in the pool everything. it was vary pleasent i must say :) i even had a mitie which got me a little messed up and i was wopndering why. till someone told me there was rum in there. if i would have known i wouldent have had it rum and i dont get along so well LOL

But we dident get fireworks cause u can see the firewoorks that the city puts on from my back yard. this is where the crazyness come in. the fireworks that the city puts on was actually put on by the city's minor leadge base ball team this year, because the city is broke.. And these fireworks sucked big time.

But everyone an there cousin in my naighborhood had nothjing but illeage fireworks of all kind. i know there illeagle but damn were they beautiful. sounded almost like a 17th centery battle field, which for some reason i thought was neat. the fireworks were non stop from 8 pm till 2 am.

at 1130 pm i went out by the pool to see if i could see any , cause i still heard them and they were still close by. all of a sidden i see two shoot up in the air, and i watch them dissapear in the sky. i was awaiting a tiny pop. but to my serprise, two perfessional tstyle fireworks wemnt off right above my head at that point all i could think to say was "holy shit" and i went back in the house

This was our first 4th of jully in this house. at the other house the guy across the street had illeagles every year, and we thought that was a big deal. but here everyone but us it seemed had them. im certainly looking forword to more forth of julys here :D