the last two days

Monday

Ok so my brother jeff has been tring to get me to a hair stylest or barber (im not intirly sure what the hell the difference isLOL) cause he dident like me with long hair, cause it looked like a mullet stright out of MacGyver, and he wont leme buzz my head cause i have a receeding hair line.

We tried going several times but something always came up. well monnday was the day. Jeff and i had planed to go to the mall and have lunch with mom so that shed have componey on her hour brake. cept hector came to., which was fine i guess.

After we met mom jeff said he was taking me to this girl corena to do my hair. i thought ok i guess. heres the kicker Corena as it turns out wasent some girl, NOR had she always BEEN a girl. she was a he, who espired to be a she. and im not talking just crossdressing she had some parts removesd and others created or implanted. i know silacone when i see them. but her dress happend to be so short having *to quote gen O'neall from SG1* junior wasent possable
Now she was eather spanish or mexican, so i figurred maybe she wasent a he at all, just a girl with a deep voice.

My friend cristina has a deep voice and shes all woman. but ther co worker did say that yes she was indeed born a he

anyhow she did my hear, ists alot shorter, and has shave a few years off my apearence. though now i need to start using gel. she was vary gent;le considering that my skin is vary senceative especially my scelp..she was vary gentle and thats a plus.

with the new wardrobe i got last monday and the new hair cut im on my way to something, still im not all that comfortable with change, expecially of this magnatude and this close together time wise
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i was out all day that day, it included the hooca bar, the pool hall (which i couldent get a beer cause i looked so young now and i still havent renewed the bloofy id card) and 2 trips to the taco trucks that i paid for tueday morning LOL.. and also had a cople friends over, to the wee house tueday morning

Tuesday

At 4 am i was just about getting ready to go to bed. I kept thinking about my uncle who was gona have his heart sergery 2 and a half hours ;ater. Knowing he would be up and getting ready to go to the hospital for pre opp proceedures, i called him. told him i loved him and i knew hed be ok and i promised id see him soon. a few minutes later i hung up the phone and went to bed. where i slep till 10 am (in disscomfort from the taco trucks lol) i also had my uncle on my mind. and i called to hear there was no word yet.

No news is good news i thought and did my excersizes, that went well till i got on the excersize bike. i am wrinding along. and my seat which was on hight setting 1 drops down to 0 and i drop with it . twice this happend im sure i got a bruse on muy ass somewhere. i got off the thing not wanting to share a room with my uncle if i kept going.

My uncle made it through sergery and should me in intensive care another 10 or so hours from the time i post this. so about noon he will have a standard room. im just glad he pulled through it

stress and woring can make a peep tired. i knew hed be fine but it dosent stop one from worring. right before fay and pop died i felt something, what i believe to have been the angel of death. the human sences are wonderous things. but u have to listen to them and believe they can see and feel things are eyes and ears cant.

i dident feel that death feeling from my uncle. what i did feel was like a warning a wake up call, but nothing more. i tried telling my aunt that he was going to be fine, but strangely enough if a person dosent believe in that esp stuff , they sure wont listen to try and tell u about it(i love my aunt dearly, but she needs to learn that there are somethings in this world u canrt explain even if u tried for 1,000 years)

Im just glad i was right and my family dident have the same outcome as a year ago. since my aunt uncle and granparents, and my family do everything together, a blow to one is a blow to all

thanks pop for watching over him and all of us from up there



side notes

1 that girl never called me back. thats her loss not mine i did my part :)
2 I have not even gotten agitated in 3 days, due to meditation and learning controle
3 looks like i might be going for a 10 hour roadtrip to san diego within the next few weeks. i could use a vacation