my dark side

jeff and i had froemds over for a little get together, (pool party and BBQ) i had a few drinks , not to get drunk but to numb certain aches pains and memories. AS the night went on i had aboout 6 bear, and u went head and made some bad choices

my mother requested i drink no more cause she felt i was drunk, i rebelled and drank more cause i felt i was fine.. a friennd of mine sided with my mom and in extream anger brought on by ahes pains and memories and bit her head off, and then when my mother got involved i turned around and bit her head off. . claiming that she had no riught to baby me or evbn try to ,make dissions for me

ive been awear that im develuping my own dark side now for the past few weeks, and i have tried to counteract it with medatation. the fact is since 1992 ive been angery about a great deal and every few years it begins to change my personnality.

thus ive decided i need to be left alone to clear my head, this means no instant messages no phone calls from anyone, to my friends and thoes who care about me plrase dont take it perspnally i dont wana loose controle of yemper and hurt anyone else ii car for.

this iis my deamon the resault of my painful past , and i need to deal with it before it destroyies me. i dont want to be thought of as an evil man cause truely im not

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