why me

Friday my brother asked to have a little get together (turned out to be 24 people) for spagetti dinner and a swimming party. All was fun, my brother jeff, and my cousin tom picked me up and lightly tossed me in the pool, and that was alot of fun.

We got out at midnight, and sat around the fire pit talking drinking beer and what not. then things went south (for me anyway). I was sitting behind my brother and this guy named brian coskey. jeff had these chips, that were ours he bought them for the get together. So i went to put my hand in the bag,

Before i knew it coskey turned arund and punched me in the nose. i dident get no apolagey, no opps, or even a my bad. Instead what do i get? "ive been wanting to punch that nose all night". AND if that wasent bad enough the dissabled jokes started. everything from me being ugly, to not having girl friend, no girl would ever want me, and then they start with the reason im a vergin is probally cause i cant have sex. why is it people assume that cause i cant walk i cant get it up, one has nothing to do with the other. trust me on this, as data would say "im fully funcational"

Anyway i told them all i dident need this shit, and nor would i stand here and take it, they could all kiss my ass. so i went to bed.

I woke up this morning and told my mother about she was a little upset. but my father took it way to far. "why dident you come and get me and i would have delt with hism" first of all whgat the hell am i gona do run to my parents to protect me. I am soon to be 24 years old. I may be dissabled, But im still a man, i have my honor and my self respect. I wont run to my parnets anymore Grown men dont do that sort of thing and i have my own dignity and honor , if its my fight then i have to fight it, nort someone else, regardless off the possable consequences it may mean to me

For got sakes, i mean there in there 20s. why the hell do they still have to make fun of me cause im different. for 16 years its been the same shit over and over, and mom said things would get better as people got older,. In my prospective thats utter crap, a falsehood.

And people wonder why im not a people person. why i cant go up and talk to girls or people in general. its because people have verballly and phisically and phsyicologially squashed any kind of hope or self confadence ive ever had. and still they continue :(

people also say that the evil people who do these kinda things to me will get theres in the end. well i wish there end would come sooner, so they could eperence the pain that they caused me ...........

i know wanting revenge is wrong, but i cant help it But havent i spent enough nights crying myself to sleep at night cause of fucked up people like this:(